Faith & FamilyFor Every Thing There is a Season June 18, 2015As you may have guessed with my few posts lately, things have been running ninety miles an hour around here. The renovation is at what we guessed would be the most stressful and time-consuming phase and we were right! While we’ve done a lot of renovation projects, we know the least about foundation and framing and that’s what’s happening right now with the addition. There is A LOT to figure out and to sort through. On top of that, it’s taking all of my energy to work with Rosie right now, trying to get her on a schedule and be there for her as she’s trying to figure out the wonderful world of sleep. There are so many emotions wrapped up in all of this. There is unspeakable joy, but intermingling with that lately in my heart is the hint of failure. Ofcourse, it’s hard being a mom and knowing the “right” thing to do, even at this age. But it’s also hard to not have enough time during this season for my dreams. I feel so selfish saying that. I know that my dreams are not more important than my role as a mother. But it is hard heading in a direction and then feeling like though you’re more determined than ever and you keep that gas pedal to the floor, someone else is hitting the brakes at the worst times. When I started The White Buffalo, God gave me such a clear vision for what it would become. While some of that has become a reality, in many ways, I feel like I’m just scratching the surface. And not being able to fully pursue those things makes me feel like I’m failing. My sweet sister sent me this video of one of my favorite people’s story. I love the show, Fixer Upper, and more than that, I love the sweet family behind it. Joanna’s story spoke straight to my heart and really gave me some encouragement during this hard season, and especially hard week. Don’t worry, sharing this video is not a hint that I’m going to stop blogging. In fact, this really spurred me on to be more effective in my work. But it also gave the freedom to realize that the dreams God has given me may be more long-term than I might like and that is 100% okay. It also reminded me that while I have big, big dreams for this brand, one of my biggest dreams has always been to be a mom. Instead of believing the lies and focusing on where I am failing (because let’s face it, I’ll always be failing somewhere), I’m choosing to take Joanna’s lead and focus on the magic of this season. Though I’m inadequate and lacking, I’m seeing the threads of my dreams and my callings being woven before my very eyes into the most beautiful story. I hope hearing their story will bring you some encouragement right where you are and will cut right to the heart of your struggles, as it did for me. And I thank y’all for showing up here. For encouraging me during this hard season when there isn’t a new, exciting design post every day of the week, though I desperately wish there was. I know that time will come again and I’m thrilled for that. But thank you for seeing more in The White Buffalo than interior design. While that’s my focus, my God-given vision was always more than that. While it’s not ever going to be perfect, this is a unique place where style and souls are shared, just as I stayed up nights dreaming about. And that, my friends, is something I am immeasurably grateful for.