Well, y’all may have seen by now that my entry was #11 in Round 1 of Creating with the Stars.
So many of y’all said you had your guesses and I am DYING to know what you thought! Please leave them in the comments! I loved so many of the others and thought, “I would love to have that in my house!!!”
I’m going to share a lot of details, photos, and my inspiration behind my office tomorrow. For now, I’ll just say that I love this room. It is by far my favorite project I’ve ever done and my favorite room in our house. Since I finished it on Saturday, I’ve just walked in and sat and looked at it several times a day.
More on the specific room and these two projects tomorrow.
Today, I wanted to talk about what I learned from this first round.
I had no idea what to expect with CWTS.
First of all, I didn’t expect to feel the overwhelming pressure that came with it. I’m not sure why. I didn’t think it would be easy to turn around a project so fast. But I’ve gotten so comfortable with my style and doing what I love regardless of how I think it will be perceived, that I thought I’d just have fun with it and let things fall where they may. I mean, that’s the entire premise that I started White Buffalo on, right?
Well, I have a confession to make.
I kind of forgot some of my style mantra this past week. As soon as I knew I was a contestant, I had stress, chest tightness, and was even nauseous over choosing an idea!
I kept telling myself I was being stupid. I needed to do what I do on the blog. Do something I love and then let it be.
But I couldn’t get the questions out of my head.
What if people think my style is weird? I mean my style is kind of out there. What will the voters want? Should I tone down my style to please others?
I know what you’re thinking. You’re shocked that White Buffalo, who is founded on flying your style freak flag, faltered.
Well, I did. Majorly.
After about a day and a half of worrying about how the whole world would receive my first project (and tons of idea-block as a result), I sat down and journaled a prayer.
This has become a daily ritual for me now and I can’t tell you how calming it is and how it immediately adjusts my perspective.
I immediately had peace to be me. Thirty minutes later, the idea for the marble waterfall desk came and I FREAKING LOVED IT!
I had no more concerns. I no longer cared what voters would think because I was proud of it.
The next morning, I had the idea for the tie dye curtains, which might be one of my favorite things ever.
All week, I was on this giddy high.
I made the project and the more I got done, the happier I was. Not because I thought I would win this week or even because it made me think I’d definitely move on. Neither of those things happened. I hoped, sure, but had no idea what the outcome would be.
But I was so excited because I knew I was creating something that made my style heart go pitter-pat. And that was all that mattered.
Then, Monday comes and all of the projects are rolled out.
Y’all, the talent blew me away. Everyone was so talented!!! The projects were professional grade and amazing.
And the stress, pressure, worry, and doubt crept back in. I gave the results of this contest to God last week and prayed that I would not see anyone else as competition, but that I would do my best and support others.
But still, all day Monday, I worried.
And then on Monday night, I heard a still, small voice. “What would you have done differently?”
After seeing the projects in all their glorious awesomeness, what would I go back and change?
I pondered this a while and then it hit me…
Not one single detail.
I loved it that much.
After seeing the results this morning, all of this was confirmed.
Not because I made it through at all. In fact, I was shocked at some of the results! All of the projects were great and I know everyone worked so hard, but I really didn’t see some of the ones that were cut leaving. That green cabinet from Bliss at Home was one of my very favorites!
But then I was reminded that White Buffalo is founded on the idea that we all have different styles and opinions. And I want to celebrate that!
I can’t question what voters like or even worry about that.
I can’t try to make my style into something I think others will like based on the results. Number one, I would hate it.
But number two, because it wouldn’t be being true to me or what I founded this blog on. I refuse to compromise myself and what I love for votes or success.
I’m going forward with my designing life and CWTS committed to FLYING MY STYLE FREAK FLAG, a.k.a doing what I love without worry of what anyone else thinks.
And I want to re-encourage y’all to do the same! Fly it high and proud. Let it wave and flap in the winds of other opinions that brush up against it.
Do what you love. Always. Without worry, without fear. And do it with joy.
Because when you start to worry about what others are going to think or like, your joy and creativity is stolen. Gone. Without a trace. Trust me. After this week, I know.
And it doesn’t come back until you let yourself be you again and FLY THAT FLAG!!!
I’m off to work on Round 2′s painting project and I’m feeling so good. Not because I think the audience and voters will love it. I have no idea how it will go over. It may send me home.
But I love it, deep down in my style soul, and that means it’s the right project for me.